Imagine not second-guessing yourself and getting things done. Staying true to your plans and ultimately showing yourself that you are in control. It’s a wild game to play, not to mention fun!

I’ve been working on doubting myself less; it gets triggered within me when I get scared. Is this you too?

I used to claim the title of perfectionist. It was my go-to strength and weakness when prompted with that question in an interview: “What would you consider your greatest strengths and weaknesses, and how do you see yourself working in this role?”

I would answer that they are one and the same. My perfectionism is a blessing and a curse. It takes me longer to do things because I question if it’s completed or if it could be better. The quality of work and the end result will be out of this world, but the process to get there can be quite the journey, depending on the task.

I see now that this title overall wasn’t worth claiming. We accomplish mastery by curiosity and viewing failures and mistakes as opportunities for growth and learning. A perfectionist avoids curiosity altogether, so they don’t risk looking lesser than.

Perfectionism is externally driven.

I never felt so attacked. I never even considered myself vain. OCD, maybe a tad, but wow! It all hit home when I realized this.

Instead of doubting and fearing myself, now I choose to push forward and experiment with all the steps I need to take. Taking more steps promotes growth, and growth encourages knowledge and confidence. Every step will play its part!

Life is a journey worth taking. It has its ups and downs. We have to practice and train every day to navigate through them. When I doubt myself, I tend to isolate or make bad choices (let’s call them distractions). This as a default is detrimental to my growth. I remember hearing the following in a podcast:

Your thoughts become your feelings.
Your feelings become your actions.
Your actions become your habits.

We must have patience. This doesn’t happen overnight. Bad habits have their own pace, but surely their time will come. I can only be excited about what this pivot is going to do for my life. I know that it’ll take me being brave over time. Brave enough to reset my mood, brave enough to push through—even if I have nothing left. Just to be brave!

So the new goal is bravery and consistency. With it, everything shall fall into place. Stick to knowing that… “It is within me, so I have to will it into existence.”

I am here for you. It does take a village.

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